It's hard to think that just a mere 12 days ago I was sweating my fat a** off trying to clean AS. MUCH. as I possibly could... hauling stuff to storage and hollering at a team of teenage boys who were doing yard work and odds and ends all while my Mother was painting walls and touching up door frames... all in an effort to get our house "on the market".
The weekend was coming and in the week before I had watched TWO new listings show up in our neighborhood when there hadn't been a new one in over a month.... I was starting to feel threatened by the "competition" and we became desperate to get the house 'ship-shape'.....
I went home that night and stayed up nearly allll night working on the website, adding more photos, writting up more text, going over the bills so I could add that section. Stories and tears were pouring out for hours... I don't know how much I cried that night - thinking about all the things that would never happen there ... and the little moments I'd seen and taken for granted over and over and over... that now, I would never see again. .
Where was El Capitan you ask.....? Run off by my "overbearing Mother" as one poster alleged? No.... he was at work. El Capitan works for..... El Diablo (that is one happy coincidence that those two concepts are related.... lol). El Diablo *pays* El Capitan for a salary based on a 40 hour work week... however, the MINIMUM expectation is to work AT LEAST 50 yours... though usually it's closer to 60 or more. Inspite of "working more" we actually get paid less which puts pressure on my small business's to "pick up the slack".
Anyhow.... El Diablo has had El Capitan working 60+ hours a week (or, at least he *say's* he's at work.... hahha) so it fell on me and my Mom to pack up his stuff and move it to storage for him. It was a bittersweet pill to be going through ten years of what I had thought was "wedded bliss" .... alone. Do I keep our cake toppper? Are either of the kids *really* going to use that on their own wedding cake....? What about all birthday cards and anniversary cards..... and the "World's Best Daddy" handprint canvas the kids make a year ago for Father's Day.... do we keep that? A doubled edged emotional sword plunging through the heart of what *was* leaving behind the bloody, broken mess of a heart of that is *now*.
Anyhow.... I digress (mind you, you should be somewhat used to that by now....? hahaha) - my piont is - 12 days ago I was just trying SO. FREAKING. HARD. to get our house on the market and out into the general population .... so it would sell. (not a snowballs chance of that just yet.....haha)
I had NO IDEA that 12 days later I would be sitting in a big, fancy city having flown out here with the kids for some interviews.....and they would get to see some fantastic National landmarks - things El Capitan and I never saw - nor could ever afford to take them too... that's pretty amazing. I'm not sure *what's* coming my way after all the hub-bub dies down about the sign and me and whatever.... what'll happen when traffic and the blog slows down to only my immediate circle of friends (I do have amazingwonderfulloyal friends.... I'm lucky like that!) - like - will this have been yet another catastrophic mistake as many couchpotatocritics want to claim.....? Or will it just fade away like most "cyber famous" events......?
Whatever happens then, I'll tell you that I'm sure as sh*t grateful as alllll get out for the opportunity presented to me and the kids this week - BECAUSE of said sign..... it's really been an amazing and humbling ride.... I'm
So... the kiddos... OMGosh... talk about INSANE! lol Bright lights and big city..... The Boy has declared a love for both and asked if we can move here.... ummm, no. The Girl danced her way through the park and both are lying here refusing to sleep because they can't wait to go on tomorows adventures.... my pleas of needing sleep are fallen on over-excited ears..... that's kind of magic within itself.
So, today is brilliant. There are not words for the gratitude.... more details on our trip to come....
The weekend was coming and in the week before I had watched TWO new listings show up in our neighborhood when there hadn't been a new one in over a month.... I was starting to feel threatened by the "competition" and we became desperate to get the house 'ship-shape'.....
I went home that night and stayed up nearly allll night working on the website, adding more photos, writting up more text, going over the bills so I could add that section. Stories and tears were pouring out for hours... I don't know how much I cried that night - thinking about all the things that would never happen there ... and the little moments I'd seen and taken for granted over and over and over... that now, I would never see again. .
Where was El Capitan you ask.....? Run off by my "overbearing Mother" as one poster alleged? No.... he was at work. El Capitan works for..... El Diablo (that is one happy coincidence that those two concepts are related.... lol). El Diablo *pays* El Capitan for a salary based on a 40 hour work week... however, the MINIMUM expectation is to work AT LEAST 50 yours... though usually it's closer to 60 or more. Inspite of "working more" we actually get paid less which puts pressure on my small business's to "pick up the slack".
Anyhow.... El Diablo has had El Capitan working 60+ hours a week (or, at least he *say's* he's at work.... hahha) so it fell on me and my Mom to pack up his stuff and move it to storage for him. It was a bittersweet pill to be going through ten years of what I had thought was "wedded bliss" .... alone. Do I keep our cake toppper? Are either of the kids *really* going to use that on their own wedding cake....? What about all birthday cards and anniversary cards..... and the "World's Best Daddy" handprint canvas the kids make a year ago for Father's Day.... do we keep that? A doubled edged emotional sword plunging through the heart of what *was* leaving behind the bloody, broken mess of a heart of that is *now*.
Anyhow.... I digress (mind you, you should be somewhat used to that by now....? hahaha) - my piont is - 12 days ago I was just trying SO. FREAKING. HARD. to get our house on the market and out into the general population .... so it would sell. (not a snowballs chance of that just yet.....haha)
I had NO IDEA that 12 days later I would be sitting in a big, fancy city having flown out here with the kids for some interviews.....and they would get to see some fantastic National landmarks - things El Capitan and I never saw - nor could ever afford to take them too... that's pretty amazing. I'm not sure *what's* coming my way after all the hub-bub dies down about the sign and me and whatever.... what'll happen when traffic and the blog slows down to only my immediate circle of friends (I do have amazingwonderfulloyal friends.... I'm lucky like that!) - like - will this have been yet another catastrophic mistake as many couchpotatocritics want to claim.....? Or will it just fade away like most "cyber famous" events......?
Whatever happens then, I'll tell you that I'm sure as sh*t grateful as alllll get out for the opportunity presented to me and the kids this week - BECAUSE of said sign..... it's really been an amazing and humbling ride.... I'm
So... the kiddos... OMGosh... talk about INSANE! lol Bright lights and big city..... The Boy has declared a love for both and asked if we can move here.... ummm, no. The Girl danced her way through the park and both are lying here refusing to sleep because they can't wait to go on tomorows adventures.... my pleas of needing sleep are fallen on over-excited ears..... that's kind of magic within itself.
So, today is brilliant. There are not words for the gratitude.... more details on our trip to come....
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