Be Out, Be Seen, Be Visible......

6/14/2013

So..... it's PRIDE week in Portland and festivities were started tonight......

No... this is not Carhartt - this is a very good friend of mine.... :)

See me.... that's me: happy.
See me.... that's me: being who I am.
See me... that's me: being whole.
See me... that's me: being true to myself.
See me.... that's me: feeling comfortable.
See me... that's me: being out.
See me.... that's me: being proud.
See me..... I'm gay.
See me..... I'm smiling.

And you know what.... it's about f*cking time, don't you think? lol

I can't begin to tell you how amazing, how *comfortable* I am surrounded by gay people who are dancing and kissing and having a great time.... and feeling comfortable and safe doing it. We are lucky we live in Portland... home of the bacon donut and naked bike rides.... a bunch of queers dancing is the *least* 'weird' thing you're likely to see around Portland.... lolol

What is 'weird'... is seeing myself and seeing me happy.... I've only every really been *this* happy when the kids were born.....

It's been a loooooong couple of weeks around here. At the end of the day - and I say with absolute love and affection and respect for all of you..... but I'd rather be hated for being who I *am* than being loved for being someone I'm not.

I am the woman who's husband left her for a 22 year old.
I am the woman who made a funny sign to sell her house... and wound up on TV.
I am a Mom to two beautiful children.
I am still the person who tries to do the right thing, tries to find the silver lining and the humor in everything.
I am a small (and struggling) business owner.....

And I am a lesbian.

I am - for those who need more a definition - a 'chapstick femme' - who swoons completely and totally over girls who dress like/look like boys..... sports bra's, boy jeans, boy clothes, short hair.... and if they have tattoo's and muscle cars.... well.... yeah - that's *super* hot.

Most of all... I am proud.

Proud that I have been able to stand on my own two gay feet, find a place in my LGBTQ community, get involved and..... make friends. That's kind of awesome..... actually - what's *really* awesome is that the Portland LGBTQ community is sooooo fantastic. It really is.... I am blessed and grateful.... and really - I'm proud....

So. Whoever you are. Whatever you do. Whoever you screw.... I hope you're PROUD, too. :)
Happy PRIDE weekend!

3 Comments

Jaimey

6/14/2013 12:47:27 am

Awesome. I'm just sad I wasn't there. 80's night soon! I think I've recovered from the last one. ;)

Huh

6/14/2013 06:58:54 pm

It's been awhile since I last read your blog and I haven't read all your posts since then (ergo maybe I need to read for an hour or so to see what has transpired) but I have a big ole how did you suddenly go from straight to gay question now lodged in my noggin

Jane

6/15/2013 02:05:18 am

Hi, I have been away and missed a lot of your posts. I was wondering at what point did you learn you were gay & did it have any effect on your marriage? Thank you!

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