I think that I'm a decent 'story teller' - at least according to Jeff Probst I am... hahaha. However, I am in agreement with the many who find fault with spelling and grammar issue's - of which - there are many in nearly every post.
In my humble defense - I'm not a writer - I'm not a blogger... I'm a photographer, a small business owner, a home-school teacher, a Mom... but 'wordsmith' is not a title I own by any stretch of the imagination.
Good for me that I never said I was to start with. lol
It's not that I don't *want* to be a better writer - but.... I do the best I can - seriously. I sit down five nights a week to share what's happening in my life, what's going on in my heart and how this whole, entire fuster-cluck is changing my world. I don't anyone to think that my spelling or grammar errors are any kind of indication that I'm cavalier in *what* I'm writting.... that is NOT the case. I take the blog and what I say on it very seriously. I have google analytics on the site and the average site visitor spends over 53 minutes on the site when they visit. That tells me that people are actually taking the time to read and digest what I write... that means a lot to me. I truly does.
However - my good intentions clearly do not take the place of a formal education
Much like my life... sometimes what I write on the blog - isn't very pretty. I appologise for that, and I appologise if some people find my myriad of grammar and spelling issue's annoying. Really - I do.
I'm just flying by the seat of my pants... and you can either sit back and enjoy the ride - or, get sidetracked by the wind blowing your hair in your face once in a while.
In other news - I got an invitation to my first post-divorce party. I have some friends who go allll out for Halloween and they have two parties each year. On Friday they have a kid friendly party - complete with a HUGE haunted house and dancing. On Saturday, they have an all-night 'adult' party with a full bar, haunted house and dancing.
We were invited last year - and we took the kids to the kid party. It was awesome - The Boy had the time of his life - complete with some serious poorly executed Michael Jackson moves on the dance floor. I really wanted to go to the Saturday night party - even got us costumes to wear... but El Capitan wouldn't go.
Looking back.... now I wonder if he was embarassed to be seen with me? Or, something?
So THIS YEAR - who has two thumbs, an ill-fitting costume and is going to the Saturday party?
THIS GIRL. lololol
I only know my friends hosting the party, so I'm a teeny bit nervous about not knowing other people - not having that built in social connection with a husband is going to be odd.
In ten years of marriage I was only ever away from El Capitan and the kids for work - and even then, the longest we were ever apart was 7 days in a row. He was my best friend - I looked forward to hanging out with him every night. Given a choice - I would always prefer to be spending my time with him (in the past) - so I never really went out without him. (other than Moms Night Out kind of thing... but not 'out out' as in like a party or anything like that....)
This year I'm DETERMINED to have a good time. I want to go out and spend time with people who don't use the phrase "Mommy - I'm done.....!!!!!!" when they need me to come wipe their a$$. I *adore* my children - but there's something to be said for ringing in a Saturday night with poop/pee free hands and conversations that don't involve topics like "Elmo" and "Pingu" and don't include the soundtrack of The Fresh Beat Band.
I'm not sure what I'll wear.... perhaps I'll make up two large meatballs, stick them in a jar and walk around with a sticker that say's: HELLO MY NAME IS The Emasculator. (I think I just make up a new word... )
It doesn't really matter what I wear - it's not like anyone is going to hit on this hot mess... and no really - that's not fat joke - the ENTIRE PLANET can ready my inner most thoughts ... I'm not sure that makes me 'dating material' right now. I'm just looking forward to the company and a party atmosphere.
It's clear that there are things El Capitan wanted to while we were married that I was 'holding him back' from... I think it's time that I accepting that there were things *I* wanted to be doing in our marriage that we weren't - and start doing them now!
So... hit me up with your costume suggestions!!!!!! :)